Day 34 - Dates With My Inner Wisdom

"Making Peace With Your Inner Shit-Talker"

Day 34

Reflect On This Shit: What practices could you incorporate to love yourself deeper?

Inspired by Julia Cameron’s The Artist Way, I’ve been taking myself out on a weekly date with my inner wisdom. I spend it however I’m intuitively led. Today was my third week and it’s been incredibly powerful so far.

When I woke up this morning, I had no intention of seeing Wicked: For Good in the theater by myself. My money situation isn’t pretty right now, so I questioned whether it was a wise choice.

Then a friend texted me that they were told to “bless someone” and realized it was me. They sent $30 for lunch and the movie. My intuition was like, see? Let’s go on a date!

I had therapy at 10am and brought my journal along for all of my adventures. My therapist asked what the movie means to me.

Me in my Wicked socks & journal on my date with my inner wisdom.

I’ve seen the Wicked stage musical about seven times (mostly in Chicago). The movie was my first time seeing Elphaba played by a black person assigned female at birth, and queer. PLUS, Cynthia Erivo and I go way back.

I got weepy when I shared how “The Wizard of Oz” is a big cultural reference for my family. I’m glad we’re seeing it together when I go to Chicago next week. My mom sent me the Gregory Maguire hardcover book and a CD of the soundtrack during my last year of grad school in 2003.

My mom and I sing it when we’re together. She always lets me be Elphaba.

I sprung for the DBOX seats and 3D screening, since it was a matinee. I drove straight to the theater after my Al-Anon meeting and journaled in my seat until the movie began.

I have soooooo many thoughts that I’m still unpacking. I will be seeing this movie at least two more times, so I’ve got time to allow my thoughts to marinate.

Stay tuned…